The big thought that is overwhelming me lately is what to do about the future. For the longest time I felt the call to foreign missions. As you all probably know, that is where Abby and I met, on a 7 week mission trip to a very large and extremely populated communist country in East Asia. I think you are all smart enough to figure out what country it is with out me having to say it, for the protection of missionaries that may be there. Anyway Ab and I met when we were serving the Lord and it has always be something that I have wanted to continue to do. The problem is, I don't really know how God wants us to serve him. I wish discerning God's will for our lives was an easy thing. But in my experience it hasn't been. I would still love to be a foreign missionary but I just don't know where or when or for that fact what organization to serve in. I know some of you might be saying that maybe missions is not part of God's plan for us because of all the unanswered questions and the lack of direction that we are feeling. But I truly believe that all of us who are believers in Christ and have a relationship with Jesus Christ are called to serve the Lord. It can't be anymore clear than Matthew28:19 in which Christ commands us to" go and make disciples of all nations". I know there are many ways to serve the Lord. But if there are two people such as Abby and I who are willing to share the love and truth of Christ to those who have not been given the opportunity to hear it, then why would God want us to do anything else. I don't know? That's my question.
What I do know is that personally I don't think at this moment I am ready to be a missionary. There is still alot of work to be done in the heart of Tim McBride. Lately I have been in a lot of thought about this subject and I am trying diligently to become the man God desires for me to be. That means daily investing my time and energy into growing closer and more intimite with God. If you know me well, which I am sure most of you do, you know this has been a struggle for me. But I can't begin to tell you the excitement and passion I have had for the Lord lately. My heart sometimes feels like it going to beat out my chest when I think about all the amazing ways that I can continue to grow closer to God. I just pray that this passion is not short lived and that it is something that will always be with me and a part of my faith in God. Passion for the Lord and passion for the lost. May those be the two things that consume my life!
Anyway, sorry for the long rambling thoughts that I have just shared with you but it's something I needed to get off my heart and into words. Peace.
"What I do know is that personally I don't think at this moment I am ready to be a missionary. There is still alot of work to be done in the heart of Tim McBride."
ReplyDeleteTrue. Now Imagine if Moses or Paul said that. There is always work to be done in our hearts, we live & die in sin. if we wait to become the man we should be then continue sitting on the couch of life because it will never happen. If you want to be the man God has called you to be then pick up your cross and go, walk with him daily. Is that not what jesus said? It's not about you personally, it's about Gods call on your life.
Not sure where my life is headed as well but I feel like we're in the same boat. I'm only 22 and my parents along with everybody else say I should stay in school and finish my degree. Reinhart Bonnke once said he felt like a bullet loaded in a gun, waiting for God to pull the trigger. I know exactly how he feels...with so much potential energy...looking for a direction. My job, college, and everything else just seems so temporary compared to the eternity of touching a single life. Keep pressing in the word. Questions come in our time, the answers come in God's time.
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